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[Jul. 9th, 2009|05:20 pm]

[	Current Mood	\|	okay	]
[	Current Music	\|	Death Cab For Cutie - I Will Possess Your Heart	]

If my head doesn't cave in on itself before this summer is over, it will be a close call. Outside of the workload I feel like I haven't gotten a decent night's rest in weeks, because my brain runs Japanese drills in my sleep and never turns off.

Third semester finals and presentations were last week, and we started right back up again with fourth semester this week, so I'm only at the halfway point. My current method of studying and time management seems to be paying off well enough, because grades were just posted for third semester and I got an A-, but seriously. I'm going to need to be put into a medically induced coma for a month to recover, once this is all done. I can't remember the last time I functioned without a low grade headache throbbing behind my left eye.

I haven't drawn a thing, taken any pictures or done any thrifting in a long time, which I'm not happy about. If I have the energy this weekend, I'll have to rectify that. My few free moments of late have been spent watching the tv shows I've missed out on, so I'm now essentially caught up on True Blood and Dexter. New Torchwood stuff is probably next on the list.

And I should really be studying for tomorrow's exam right now, but Star Trek is still playing at the big theatre in the Orpheum, and the prospect of that is distracting me to a degree that is actually pretty ridiculous.

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revolvers.

[Jun. 16th, 2009|10:13 pm]

[	Current Mood	\|	good	]
[	Current Music	\|	Buffalo Springfield - For What It's Worth	]

My summer session is insane. It has to be, if we're going to cover a year's worth of Japanese in ten weeks, but we're two and a half weeks in, and it's already midterm time. We have a kanji quiz every day and a chapter test every four days, in addition to all the homework, essays, listening comprehension and dialogue checks we have to get through. I'm keeping my head above water; good, considering that last time this is the part where I remember Japanese stopped being fun, but I don't have time for much else besides sleeping and working just enough hours to pay my bills.

I'm trying to get gym time in, and work myself back up to exercising every day. And eating better. This has got to be the heaviest I ever allow myself to get, or I'll be in trouble.

A day trip to Chicago fell apart this weekend, so I found myself with enough free time to indulge a little bit. Farmer's market, mimosa brunch at the Orpheum and one last screening of Star Trek before it leaves their big screen. I have a strange, secret little love affair with the Orpheum; it's a big old deco theatre from the 1920's, and I love being able to sit in the squeaking antique seats, watching a movie while surrounded by dimmed chandeliers, crumbling ornate moldings in gold leaf, red velvet curtains and balconies.

I also finally got around to a haircut. I miss the mullet like crazy, but there's no way I'm letting anyone but my stylist in New York attempt that, so I just got it cleaned up enough to purge all the split ends and grow out neatly. The girl was sweet, clearly fresh, and with just a round brush and a blow dryer managed to get it to do this wacky thing. It's so girly! I don't know what to do.

My iSight even managed to throw me a little bit of JJ Abrams lens flare.

( check the bouffant. )

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years.

[May. 31st, 2009|01:09 pm]

[	Current Mood	\|	complacent	]
[	Current Music	\|	Thievery Corporation - Liberation Front	]

Back in Madison. New York was good. Got to spend a fair amount of time shuffling around at home with my pets, went for long runs around Prospect Park and long shopping walks in the city. Maintained traditions of Kenka and Sunrise Mart for big Japanese dinner with Kim and Morgan, and movies with Beth.

Turned 25 yesterday, and I'm really not sure how I feel about being that old, yet. But I went for a nice birthday dinner with my parents at Franny's, wood oven pizza with octopus salad and homemade limoncello and sorbet. My mom bought me a new dress and some other more necessary clothes, and my dad took me to see Star Trek at the Ziegfeld.

And then I got totally hooked on Star Trek Reboot fandom.

I was never a fan of the original series. I still can't watch it, it's way too campy for me. I have only a passing familiarity with some of the later series', because they happened to be on TV when I was growing up, but I loved this new movie so goddamn much. McCoy in particular, and Kirk, made me explode a little with joy.

So after wasting a lot of time collecting icons and reading fic, some genderswap planted this image of girl!Bones in my head, and I spent my long and boring trip back to Wisconsin doodling in my sketchbook.

Her face got what I wanted, though I'm not entirely pleased with her hands and shoulders, but after a few hours I just had to stop fucking with it.

( snarky. )

Guh. Summer session starts tomorrow. Ten weeks of intensive Japanese misery. Gotta go buy books and groceries, mail bills, unpack.

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sprawl.

[Apr. 24th, 2009|07:50 pm]

[	Current Mood	\|	moody	]
[	Current Music	\|	Band of Horses - Marry Song	]

( two. )

I've barely drawn at all in months, and these two are the only ones I can stand to look at. Bought some gray craft paper and white pencils to at least start trying to teach myself sculpting with shadow and highlight. Finally gonna buy the clip art books I've wanted too, now that I have my tax return, so I can work on plants and skulls and skeletons.

The weather owes me a warm sunny day that isn't immediately followed by a week of cold, rainy, snowy misery. The farmer's market is back, I have bought my first frappuccino of the season. I have finally put away my winter coat and snow boots, and taken out my flip flops; it is spring. Someone get the memo.

Too fat to fit into my clothes or feel anything but prickly, but I refuse to buy new ones on principle. Can't deal, plus I don't have the time, money or energy to even contemplate shopping until my vacation shows up.

Semester's over in three weeks. Got one more paper and final exams to get through, but I've got to start prepping and studying now. I'd rather sleep for a straight month and survive off of intravenous B12 and smoothies.

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sundries.

[Apr. 7th, 2009|07:14 pm]

[	Current Mood	\|	tired	]
[	Current Music	\|	The Kills - Sour Cherry	]

I am so burnt out. This is going to be the longest three years of my life.

Managed to do bizarrely well on my midterms, though. Despite feeling like I've been moving into a coma for the past six weeks.

A month left in the semester, then finals. Then a two week break to go home to NYC and sleep, and then the Japanese intensive summer semester starts. Five hours of drills and quizzes, followed by four hours at work, every day. It's a year's worth of Japanese crammed into ten weeks, and somehow that was the most sensible option, because it'll mean graduating that much sooner and paying less for tuition. And it'll make me a better candidate for study abroad.

Still trying to eat better and start going to the gym again, but it's been a lesson in failure that's been frustrating me to tears. I want twenty pounds gone, and I don't know how I'm ever going to get there.

I didn't even think about it, but I entered myself into some condition of complete social annexation when I moved here. Whatever human contact I have is briefly at work or in class, and the rest of my time is spent at home, by myself. I don't have any friends. I haven't tried to make any. Relationships somehow seemed energy consuming and futile, based on how long I planned to be here, and the last thing I wanted was to feel old and awkward and broken, around new people. It hasn't worn on me, until now.

It seems a little ridiculous, but after nine months in Madison I had my first social outing with some coworkers over the weekend, grabbing dinner and then playing video games into the early hours of the morning. And it was fun. I'm clearly desensitized and out of practice. I still don't quite know what to do about any of it.

In my zombie-like state, I vaguely flirted with the idea of cashing out my stock options and tax return and running away to Marrakesh for a while, but that plan died in committee. I need a new spring jacket instead, but I have not been able to find anything satisfying.

Plus it's still snowing on and off, but at least the glacial icebergs in the lake have finally disappeared. I look forward to the days when the sun will be above the horizon line again, by the time I wake up in the morning.

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links.

[Mar. 10th, 2009|12:13 pm]

[	Current Mood	\|	busy	]
[	Current Music	\|	work	]

Two quizzes down, one quiz and two midterms to go, four days 'til I am home, uuugh.

Here's how I can sum up my current work experience: Let Me Google That For You

Here's how I can sum up how the girls in my neighborhood dress: Tights Are Not Pants

On the other hand, new Supernatural in two days, which I hope will bend over backwards to redeem itself from previous embarrassments.

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bolt.

[Mar. 4th, 2009|08:11 pm]

[	Current Mood	\|	drained	]
[	Current Music	\|	O.R.G. - Traveling Man	]

Oh, thank Christ. Managed to find a flight to NY for spring break, for under $200. Have to bus to Milwaukee, but that I can deal with.

So I am coming home, after all; I will be poor, but well rested! My parents have promised to feed me healthy stuff, and my mom and I will do yoga, and I will sleep a lot. And then hopefully this feeling that I am encased in horrific fattiness, the dark circles under my eyes weigh a hundred pounds, and that I might just collapse at any moment will cease. Ugh.

And since I get paid on Friday, I may decide to indulge in one of those long since forgotten human traditions, a movie or a haircut. I'm trying to grow it out, but there are evil split ends and breakage that must be purged.

Still have to get through midterms next week. Four tests, two of them in one class. Hiss.

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sunk.

[Feb. 26th, 2009|12:30 pm]

[	Current Mood	\|	crappy	]
[	Current Music	\|	Ted Nugent - Stranglehold	]

The wacky things our alumni do with their money. This was built by an art grad in the 70's I think, and recently repaired so it could be put back out. And that's our lake, frozen over. Not a field. People have been snowshoeing and skiing across it and ice fishing for weeks.

I would kill for some spring. Worn out from the weather, from classes, from work. I have two days to fabricate a big paper, two weeks until midterms, and then spring break of working full time, because I don't have the money to fly home.

I haven't been taking care of myself and I'm really starting to feel it.

But Mar finally got me to play a trial month of WoW. I can turn invisible, poison people with swords, and have a pet chicken.

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